After what feels like forever, I have made the decision to slowly start up my blog again with a fresh sense and direction. I's been almost a month since I jumped ship and although it isn't an extremely long period of time it still served its purpose as I hoped it would. Things have just been crazy in my life the last couple of weeks and now when I'm finally getting my one week break for fall, it seems like a good place to start up this blog again.
I kid you not when I tell you how stressed I've been over school, work and my other activities lately, so much that I actually thought about quitting pretty much everything I was doing, but eventually I pulled through. Oh, and I also recently got my much awaited driver's license, so that's really exciting for me although it was a hugely stressful procedure to accomplish. I've also dyed the ends of my hair turquoise and suffered from two colds within this four week period. So not only have I been stressed, I've been sick too. As you probably can tell I'm not entirely relaxed yet and considering I have a report due this Sunday I do have some work to do, but now I have the days free to do so. Isn't it ironic how you'd want to skip school just so you could stay home and study...for school? Yeah, it's kind of messed up.
Anyway, the whole K-pop thing probably should be discussed shortly too. Seriously guys, this year has been screwing us all over time after time again and I don't think we've seen the last of it yet either. It's funny how Jessica's departure from her beloved group really affected me in a way that I wasn't the slightest prepared for. Since I know the industry as well as I do and I am aware of all the faults and ugly sides of things, I shouldn't have been so emotionally shocked, but that break-up in particular was a real wake-up call for me. It appeared even the seemingly strongest bonds aren't unbreakable and it showed me just how much of it is actually a business, more than I think I knew before.
This time now, I feel like I'm coming back with a much realistic outlook on things, or at least I hope so. I've been slightly damaged yes, but hopefully it won't distract me too much from things. I am now much more mentally prepared for any additional contract terminations or such, and with that in mind I'm also awoken from my more naive way of viewing the industry. It's all just a question of money, management and personal health and no matter how you put things, everyone's in it for themselves despite how well most group members seem to get along.
On that note, I welcome you all back to this blog and hope you'll stay with me as I continue to pray about SHINee, so far the only SM group intact and scandal-free.